Friday, August 4, 2017


Finally giving in to my nafs, I finally owned a MacBook. Air.

Yes, I have to jot down somewhere about this achievement. Nothing compared to some other non-material achievement of others, but this is my blog - I say and document whatever I feel important.

Hey, I used to highlight that I got myself an iPod mini a few years back. I have been out of blogging days when I decided to become an iPhone user - started with an iPhone 5 that I have washed down in the washing machine along with my birthday present iPad mini (first generation). iPad survived until Zukry decided to watch influx in the toilet and soaked it in the pail. Hehehehe. #memoriberpantang I'm now with an iPhone 6 bought in Houston, Texas! Yeap, that's right - in 2014.

So, I am not sure how efficient the using-Macbook in the future would be but I'm gonna be excited about it at least for these few days/weeks hopefully. I'm actually considering about bringing this baby with my other babies (Zukry and Nur Amni, obviously) to our family vacation next month! OMG, that means juggling a lot of things! Probably I shouldn't but how could I leave this baby behind! Hehehehe.... #Ownerperak! 

Monday, July 31, 2017

30ish and Chicken Pox

I guess the time that I am having to blog these few days, was due to the extra time I have at home - quarantined for chicken pox. Yeap, chicken pox at this age! This was my first time and Alhamdulillah... after about a week, it has subsided although the blisters aren't really dry so the doctor extended my MC! 

The thing that I was scared for was the achy body that people have warned me. I had that just before i noticed the first few blisters on my chest... But I had the twice per week workout session with Kapt Black (I plan to blog about this soon), so my thinking was that the achy feeling was the result of the workout! 

The demam came almost immediately after seeing the doctor. Continues until day 3, and with more and more blisters coming out. The most annoying at the 2 most prominent on my face and a few others on my head (just because i couldn't see them and it hurt when i had to comb my hair!) I think I had like 6 air kelapa! Hehehe... and the antiviral pills I had - Doctor cakap 'kurangkan blisters'. So like many comments I heard, takdelah teruk sangat. But I cannot bayang kalau teruk tu camner dah.

With Amni around, still nursing - exposed to the virus, I cannot NOT worry about her not catching it. But I'm just gonna go with the flow. She's been a strong girl so far. Also, she's been playing with my blisters while nursing! I gotta nurse her in the dark, so that she couldn't see them. Hehehe. 

So, I'm just gonna embraced the MC I've received. Afterall, it is a once in a lifetime experience. I hope!

Saturday, July 29, 2017

The blog is 10 years!

OMG, I just realized that the previous post was my first post for 2017. My last post was in October 2016! Hehehe... That means, Alhamdulillah I have been busy with life that I haven't got the time to really sit down and pour my brain out. 

And also, social media obviously. Instagram and Twitter are way faster to share my thoughts, pictures, what I like or I don't, how I am/was feeling, all the important and not-so-important stuffs. That's where i got the latest gossips, keep up with the latest trend / viral things and the likes. Hehehehe...

It has been 10 years - this blog.

I started it because I feel like I needed a space to just blab about my life - then, single, alone, abroad (over the sea) and trying to make it "on my own". Thus the title, in case you have no idea why I chose that.

Now that I'm more settled, a mother, a wife, a career woman (gittewwww!) - I guess, I need to FIND time to blog. I have always had the apps in my iPhone but typing it on an actual keyboard is more satisfying...

To MacBook, or Not

We were buying our eldest niece a laptop for her university work today. While we were at the shop - I was having this urge of wanting to own my personal one too. 

I have been bugging Zukry about actually owning a MacBook, but I have been procrastinating about the idea. I was thinking, it really IS expensive, I don't need it that much but I wasn't really satisfied with how I've been spending my money these few months anyway. Might as well commit to a MacBook - and shut up! 

I've spend on a lot of baju! Baju raya, yang tailored - yang beli, yang matching, tak matching, pelbagai gaya and size juga. I have been spending on these clothing things because of the change of size, and because I feel like I can obviously. 

I settled for an Apple Watch after completing my Jom Kurus somewhere in Mar, with flying colors. Oh well, not really - I met my target, nothing above and beyond that. I did not spend any of my money on that, Zukry thought it's should be a greater motivation - so it was a gift. So, really - I should've had a MacBook by now already! 

But I'm still here - not using one. Jom pergi beli! 

Thursday, October 13, 2016

Driving to Work

Driving to work has somewhat become a luxurious thing for me these days. An alone time, me time! 

Driving to work always (but not necessarily) means that Zukry is outstation. 

So, the honorable chore of sending Amni to Kak Su is bravely undertaken alone by me today. 

Driving to work means I get to listen to my music with double the volume we are used to. Usually, it's the local radio at sensible decibel loud.

Today, it's Yuna's Chapters and Begin Again OST - Keira Knightley's only

Sunday, December 20, 2015

Working Mommy

I have always admire mommies who work hard at the office, even harder at home. I was raised by a working mom and was surrounded with many when I'm at work. 

It is not an alien subject, this working at office vs. staying at home mom. I was even exposed to the idea of bringing work to home (working from home - many of which was relying on Shaklee business) - of which is a nice idea but I'm not ready to give it all up (yet, maybe)

It's been almost one month since I left Amni at my aunt's helper care. We decided that it is better to leave Amni there first... And re-think about our Taska strategy. We have build a pretty decent routine...

5.00 - 7.30
Wake up to nurse. (Almost all the time, I went back to sleep cause I nurse her lying down... This needs improvement)
Getting ready
Prepare Amni's milk and pumping stuffs for office
- 4 bottles of milk with one packet of chilled one from last night pump session. We started with 3 oz for a week or so, then solid 4 oz each feeding. Starting tomorrow - she's getting 5 oz per feeding InsyaAllah and I have to up my pumping sessions! Come onnnn!
- a bag of ice packs for the milk I get to pump at the office
- a bag of pumping units and bottles

7.30 - 6.30 
Melawati - Gombak - LRT Putra - KLCC
Try to get at least a decent 3 sessions of 15-20 mins pumping session
Go back at earliest opportunity

6.30 - 8.00
KLCC - LRT Putra - Gombak - Melawati
Won't pass dinner offer by MakTam. Thank you MakTam :)

8.00 - 5.00
Put Amni to sleep. Pump at least one more time (usually around 9 pm) 
Tido and nurse when Amni's up (once or twice)


Exciting, huh? I have wondered if I would have the opportunity to care for own kid. That kind of thought came especially when people ask when I'm going to have one - of which I don't have the answer to kan... Now, I have one. I'm gonna care for her as best as I could. InsyaAllah...

Monday, October 19, 2015

Happy 2 Months Princess

It's 19 Oct, we are at Day 62 today.

Time really flies when you're busy having fun. And I was so over kain batik, and super ready to welcome pants into my daily wardrobe! 

We went to see our doctors on day 44, the last day of pantang. All are OK with Amni and I (minus the blood pressure thing - I was so happy with the weight loss and all, but that has not help YET)

My daily conversation revolves a lot on breastfeeding, breastmilk, breast pump and anything in between. Alien subjects to me before! 

Saturday, September 12, 2015


After 6 years of just Zukry and I, the induced labor ends at 3.30 pm on Wednesday 19 Aug 2015 with the arrival of a beautiful baby girl.

We are now parents to the cutest baby girl named Nur Amni. 
Nur - Cahaya (also match her father's name that starts with Nor)
Amni - Ketenanganku (also short enough to be called)

I need to be forward thinking and make more plans, visuals more things. I don't have any idea what Mommyhood would be like but at this very moment I can say that it's the total opposite of pregnant state. 

On Mommy side:
1. What to wear
- kill the pregnant look. Almost always looking not-pregnant because of my already loose tops and dresses. Huhu...
- now I look like someone who doesn't even care how she looks. And trust me, I care! Teeny in kain batik is not a pretty sight. Which also means I don't have a decent pantang picture. Oh well...

2. What to eat
- eat whatever I feel like eating. Durian, Teh Ais, Lychee, nasi lemak almost everyday! Pheeewwww
- bland. Nasi, Ikan, green vege. Lunch and dinner. Water and for some reason, Horlicks to help wash them all down! Sabar Teeny, sket je lagi. 
3. How much sleep
- when I was pregnant, I get to sleep super early, wake up early (I'm a morning person)
- as expected but still need adjustment - now; I sleep early, get up after 2-3 hours, nurse and dodoi baby, repeat cycle. Hehe...

About taking care of Amni - there were all NEW and I was at Level -1, not even at 0!  Alhamdulillah we survived the first month, she's now 5 weeks ;)

Sunday, August 16, 2015

Ready or Not, here She comes!

I thought the check up we had last Saturday would be our second last... And I was so sure about it until the doctor started to bring us through labor journey immediately... I was meeting an ex-colleague when my name was called, so I was late! Huhuhu. I guess, because of that she had the time to go thru my readings before I entered... And they weren't pretty enough.

- Weight has increased tremendously after only ONE freaking week!!! I hit my absolute heaviest.

- Blood pressure reading was borderline. We just had breakfast. Lontong with telur and sambal sotong for me and the baby! But still... Towards the end of pregnancy, this reading gets more crucial especially on what sort of labour I'll be facing.

So, we were first briefed about elective c-sect. To which I wasn't really surprised but still NOT ready to have labour talk. I was speechless, I asked for 'let's check the baby's condition and talk later...'

Onto the bed, this time with vaginal test! The baby alhamdulillah is healthy and well inside, estimated to be at 3.6 kg. As for the other test, apparently according to the report (which I can't really read) said that cx soft, 2 cm <- I should be ready...

So we talked about 'induced' labour. Coming into the hospital at 8 pm Tuesday - put tablets down there. Monitor progress next morning and ready to pop! Induced but vaginal delivery. We were given time to think about it - and decided, let's try normal but induced delivery...

Right now, I'm busy trying out the natural way to induce labour. But I only got 3 days... So, while doing that; I Tawakal aje with whatever the result.

Would I be in labour before being induced? Mohon doakan kesihatan saya dan baby ye... 

*writing this down to remember what happened and I'd be happy if anyone would benefit from this too... You know, learning through experience of others.

After doctor's appointment - we went for a walking spree inside Pavillion!

Wednesday, July 22, 2015

Eid celebration with a pregnant belly

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir & Batin.Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah for the strength you've given me to complete fasting the whole Ramadhan... 

My baby girl been so cooperative too. She knows her mum won't have the same patience to 'ganti puasa' later! Hehehe... We had 2 appointments with the doctor during Ramadhan and Alhamdulillah all is good. Fasting helps with the blood pressure, agaknya... 

I had one minor 'almost' fainted when measuring for my Raya outfits alteration. Thank god for a bangku nearby... It was already 6.30 pm, so buka puasa wasn't an option for me. I sat down and took a few deep breaths, Alhamdulillah back on my feet again.

I bought 2 baju raya from RR at Tesco. I could fit into their XXL - so happy! A kurung modern and a dress. And the other 2, were dresses from before... One old, one new for each kampung (Lipis and Batu Pahat)

Dress from Baby's Majlis Bertandang in Dec. Perfectly altered to fit my growing belly... The shoulder and length were altered too.

Bapak helped to take our picture. In my RR kurung modern also altered... The kain was a tad too big, despite the belly. Bahu pun jatuh sket, but no longer now! :)

See, pregnant belly has so many options to bergaya nowadays... 

We decided that, an announcement on us expecting is due - perfect to go with our Raya pic and wish. We did just that and received an overwhelming respond! Glad to know plenty were patiently waiting as much as we do...